Terrigal.

:):) I'm actually starting to get keen to leave. Get out and get some fresh air, so to speak. We're only doing the "pre-trip" routine. Clean and wash everything so we have nothing to do when we get back. HAHA! Far out. Just finished the ironing. :D Still have other washing and crap to do, but I'm taking a break. :P

School is school. Everyone tried to steal my potato bake. It was so good. :) Gave what I couldn't eat to Brooke coz she had no food. :( I have lots of homework to keep me busy, and an assignment to do. :S Crap it. Slowly, slowly things are starting to look good. Next term I just have to stay on top of my work. Prioritise everything.

Mmmmm. Ice cream. :) I'm actually kinda hungry. :S Amazing Race. (Y) Good show. Um, hmmm. Oh, Hi Dylan. Sheesh woman. :) I love you. Silly boy.

Eh, I has to go put more washing on. :(
Good night,
I love you. xxx

black and red. red and white. white and blue.

:) :) At the moment I is in a good mood. We'll see how that changes by the end of this. Finally getting on top of my assignments. Sorta. Nearly finished CAFS and Mrs Harris gave me some good news about the Hospo assessment, so that's good. And I pretty much know what I'm doing for English, so once I get the main part done, I will be good.

Exams weren't too crash hot. :S Oh well. I is finding myself with new people around me. :) It feels good. But they're people who I've known for ages, but am coming to reconnect with again only recently.

Getting keen for next week. Getting somewhat keen and nervous for end of next term. Got a little shin-dig going down. My birthday is the last day of term, and then AFL Grand Final on the Saturday. Yew!!! Yew!!! Yew!!!

Have lots to look forward to. :) :)
I love you. xx

*breathe*

Once again, I find myself on the receiving end of the same old lecture. "You should be helping more," "I shouldn't have to come home and do everything." I don't know what to do. "I'm tired" she says. But really, she isn't the only one who hasn't been sleeping. "I'm so stressed at the moment, you guys have no idea!" When really, she's the one who doesn't know.

Today, for the first time, someone, a teacher, asked if I was okay. "You don't look alright." She stated, put her arm around me, and walked with me to the Netball Courts.

I'm trying to get this assignment done, but I can't get my head around it. And it's starting to get the better of me. Everything keeps piling up. I'm slowly getting on top of my school work, but missing out on Friday, Monday, Wednesday and next Friday isn't really going to help my situation. And only having one day at home of a weekend puts the pressure on from schools isn't helping at home either.

Eh, I don't know. Hopefully everything will start to work out soon. I know everyone's like "You're still young, this is nothing." But really, how many of them have walked in my shoes?

I love you.xx

"Don't let your past dictate who you are, but let it be part of who you become."

Trust me, you won't guess who any of this is directed at.
To about 5 people:
I don't know what to say. I help all I can, but still nothing. You insist that all is well and tell me don't worry. Of all people to tell not to worry makes me want to be able to do something about it more. But it's out of my hands when I'm expected to know what you're thinking or what you'd like me to do about it. I want to help you, but some information or something would be good. I honestly can't express my feelings to you without having you blow up in my face. Even if you don't you'll still contest it. But you know how I feel, most of the time.

To 1 out of 5:
But what I hate most is when you try and guess what's wrong and are so off the mark it's not funny. And then you press for more information and it makes me want to scream. Sure there have been plenty of times when I've wanted to walk away, but you pull me back, refusing to let me go.

To 2 out of 5:
Thank you for always being there. But really, I'd like to help you when you're upset, but you won't let me, or you'll pretend that there's nothing going on.

To the other 2:
Really, you have controlled my life thus far and I would appreciate very much if you stopped. If you accepted that I am me, and I know what's best for me, you would leave me to my own devices and let me work out my own problems, and work out my own mistakes.

lista kado mou

Yeah Swanies!! I is writing a bucket list. None of which I have done yet, but am intending on doing so. But I thought I'd put up what I've got so far.

1.Go to McDonald's in Time Square NY.
2.Go to a Broadway Show.
3.Pasta and meatballs in Italy.
4.Do Kokoda.
5.Champagne in France.
6.Fish and Chips in England.
7.Oktoberfest in Germany.
8.Tomato festival in Spain.
9.Swim with Sharks.
10.Sky diving.
11.Bunjee jumping in NZ.
12.Jazz club in Chicago.
13.Disneyland in LA.
14.Photos with guards at Buckingham Palace.
15.Tequila shots in Mexico.
16.Eurovision.
17.Ride a donkey in Greece.
18.Cruise the Amazon.
19.Pass HSC.
20.Gelato in Italy.
21.Stonehenge.
22.St. Pat's Day in Irish pub.
23.Hula in Hawaii.
24.Dance in a gay nightclub.
25.Go to a Mardi Gras.
26.Get a photo with a Moose in Canada.
27.Curry in India.
28.2015 in Gallipoli for ANZAC Day.
29.Tulips and Windmills in Holland.
30.Ride a Camel in Egypt.
31.Hot air ballooning.
32.Ouzo shots in Greece.
33.Witness a Vegas Wedding
34.Tattoos.
35.Photos on the Eiffel Tower.
36.Gondolas in Italy.
37.AFL + NRL grand finals.
38.State of Origin.
39.Party in Rio de Janero.
40.Not get arrested at the Mexican border like Emily. :D
41.Not get arrested at all.
42.Get married.
43.Decorate a dinner set.
44.Decorate martini/champagne/scotch glass sets.
45.Run a marathon.

That's it so far. So basically all I've done all day is homework. Again, like any usual Sunday. :) Looking forward to getting this week over. Wicked next Wednesday. Then a fundraiser movie thing on Thursday, and the Lions Club dinner on the Friday. TOY STORY 3 comes out on Wednesday. Looking forward to going and watching it. :D



I love you. xx