"Oh Pleasus!"

The other night I had this dream. I was talking to a man, I don't know who he was, and he asked me how I was. I told him I didn't know, that words can't describe what I'm feeling. He told me of course they can, that's what words are for.

But I stand by what I said to it. How do you describe it? It's being insanely happy, but a thousand times more intense. Never wanting to let go in case it disappears. I don't know, but I like it.

Yesterday was fair good. Went and spent the day in town for Dyl's birthday. Stood outside the movies for ages before wandering around debating on what to have for lunch. We settled for Starfish. Four bowls of wedges, two Lemon and Lime bitters and five cokes later. I swear the people on the table later wanted to punch us all in the head. Christ it was funny. And then Megan came and cleaned up the wedges we didn't eat.

Then we went and watched Bounty Hunter. It was good. And, what happened next?
Oh yeah, I said goodbye and Me and Smitty walked to Hanging Rock. That was funny.

And then its started raining at footy. I didn't train, the girls had finished by the time I got there. Awe. :( So I bought myself a lemonade and sat in the counter of the canteen with Hannah and my iPod. We sang and danced to all sorts of music. Then we started singing "I Will Survive." and Mum screamed "OH PLEASUS!!" Hannah and I looked at her and then at each other and then at Mum and burst into hysterics. Shit it was funny. Mum went on to explain, in between laughing, that she meant to say "Please, Jesus".

Anywho, I had fun yesterday. Lots and lots of laughing.
Much, much, much love,
Me x.

because we're awesome.

Today very quickly became the best Easter in the history of the world. At about one o'clock, I couldn't help but sit and smile to myself for what seemed forever. With the crisp morning air at my back, I was, and still am ecstatic. I hope this feeling never goes away. I'm in too good a mood to be insulted by anyone. My heart runs a marathon whenever his name is mentioned, and I can't help but smile.

I was in way to good a mood to sleep, so stared at the wall, listening to Kayla squeaking in her sleep. Even when I did sleep, it wasn't for very long. I woke up with a racing heart again.

I can't help but keep smiling.

Anyways. HAPPY EASTER!! again. hehe.
Much love,
Me xx

xristos anesti

Why is it so hard to tell someone you like, that you do like them?
Is it the fear of ruining the friendship that's already there? Or is it that you don't want to push them away?

Happy Easter everyone. Hope that rabbit that visits every year was good to you.

We just finished watching Paranormal Activity and now we're watching 2012. And it's 1.12am and I'm exhausted. I did some waitressing for the Fiona Lodge dinner. That was pretty cool. And we got photos with Steven Larkham and Julian something or rather. I dunno they were hot.

Anywho, I'm tired.
Me x.

the only exception.

I'm happy and content. But I can't help feeling as though there is still something missing. That I'm not fully me.

Anywho, I just spent the last couple of hours in Church. And!! I successfully read and sung Greek because Mum couldn't work it out. :| Which was weird. And now we are home 45 mins earlier than we should be.

My bedroom smells like basil. Yum.

Eh, I'm sleepy. Good night world.
love love,
Me xo.

he's back ♥

This morning while listening to Amazing Grace on repeat, as we pulled into school, I had an epiphany. I'm happy. I have great friends, and I've accepted that yes, they have their flaws, and so do I. I have accepted that certain people pass judgement, and judge me at your will. I have accepted the "Music Student" brand. If you must, use it, but just know that we work hard. I am happy with me. I have a family that loves me, and a life that is generous. I have class mates who I get along with, and am beginning to see that light at the end of the tunnel. It's been a long ride, but I'm beginning to see it. That I am content. I love my family, but I am forever in debt to everyone, especially my friends. And not just the ones I sit with at lunch and recess, but the ones I spend my class time with, the ones who speak to me. And after certain events, I'm beginning to realise more and more, how much I actually do relate and "interact with the rest of our year."


But on a more serious note. HOLIDAYS!!!!!HOLIDAYS!!!!!HOLIDAYS!!!!!HOLIDAYS!!!!!

Anyone else keen? WOO! Today was awesome. Setting up for liturgy, usual music student thing. :) Then we had the liturgy. It finished. YAY! And then we got easter eggs off Mrs Maher and Mrs Whiting, and then I ate a chocolate bunny. Double English was fair chilled. We went through whats gunna be in the half yearly, and then we watched A Midsummer Nights Dream. That was fair funny, coz we were all making stupid comments through it, and then we finished.

Double Biology, as a rare ocassion, was the highlight of my day. Spent the first half in Biology, doing work, sort of, and talking to Sheersy, Vetea and Kaylee for a bit. Then I went and sat on the table with Brooke. I ended up leaning in the window of the Physics class when Mr Simmons asked "Would you like to join us?" I was like SHIT YEAH!! and spent the period with the boys in Physics. It was pretty cool. Especially when I knew the formula to work out how to convert m/s to km/h and the boys didn't. I felt smart. And then Luke and Izaac found magnifying glasses and started setting crap on fire. Shoes, leaves, folders, cardboard that makes heaps of fire, and when its blown out makes even more smoke. And then the bell went, we said our fare wells and headed home for the holidays.

So even though nothing majorly exciting happened today, I had a good day.

So VIVA LA HOLIDAYS! and party on.
Much loves,
Me x.